today is G an esha's Birthdaye.

okaye 2 day i am taking a detour, categorically speakin 
...a....happppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!@one2.
~
it..is.this.
it is a very very small emotion ( 4 lack of a better word).
it is amazing and iwanted 2share this 4sumtime now.

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i recounted a tale here  about my trip 2bengaluru|
this one  took the cake on flopitties of flops..
yet it had a few silver linings
no.

^ifind/make a few.
^one can trust rachna for finding silver linings anywhere in any situation. even if.


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*aNd yet....see?...icannot...be...bothered..w...negativity.
it...iffs...me no end.

*this calling -on bs ,is 
stilll sumthing i recount as my forte'.|
it's earned after a lifetime of juste'ju^.|
aNd yes.
cos..i'AM 
sooo...good.|

you need 2 take my 
word on this one.| 

if this is on any1's face. 

GOOD.|

coz it is true.

aNd iam ready 2 
give up on anything.
... as ihave.

|but....not....on..what...is...ok...
4~2.me....|
and...whatisnot?|


+
this...is...stilll.....what...i...decide|
itmay be my smallest right igot.....but....sach..is..the...wor(l)d..of...allah.|
bhagwan...kqe...liye....sab...samaan....hain.|
ichoose...what...ichoose.|
...ichoose.|
i don't allow....any1..2...control..my....thoughts.etx

anyway.

~
ya' oll took my word. when i told you... 
my cabdriver in bengaluru was amazeballs. 
apart 4m a few .. really .. good . .qualities .. this bloke had : 
here goes. 
: 

~ 
" o  there R so many churches here " 

( jus lyk hospitals

( gurl observing city ; 


*it makes ... not much difference 2 me , this way or that. 
yet i simply said it. 

ima fan of jesu ~ 
he's known as ganesha too 
by us. | 

~this is known as 
innestanding 4m a 
spot of 
synchRonisasion. 

(or else, peeps spend liVetimes,
gettin anywhere.)
|| anyway. it is true too.|| 
ganesha is son of eishvar. 
jesu too is son of eishvar. 

so.
bloke says : in a split second. 
~ yesudas. 
in my language - christians Rcalled as yesudas/ yesudasie.
meANS ~ servant of christ - male .  / servant of christ - female . 

imagine that ?! 

*a christian calls himself a 'servant to christ'.in my native language , in mypart of the world . 
this is what makes my country great. 
pardon me. 'tis true. 

~i was stunned . 

i sat stunned there at that moment. 
i/we was seated in a very blundering taxie at the time and a pretty blundering situation aswell|
and yet it doesn't hurt 2have elevated awareness through lifetoughies,does it ?  

wen he said this , how he said this . 
isn't coz..  
i myself had .. any ... ( false and otherwise - worldly -kcreated fites @ ) 
argument there. 

iwas stunned coz.. in a split second this man rasied my kconsciousness ... ! 4like ! shot up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he was giving me the .. ever so .... .sweet simple .. .effervescent ... 
common man's perspective / point of view. ..... 
it doesnot mean .. iam not .. a common civilian.|
it means ... im stilll ... quite ... educated .... ~elitist ... a little .... if one likes 2 put it this waye.... | 

for a ....cab .. driver ..... he is ...simply ... accepting .... of everything .. .everyone ..... he cannot afford ... fights on grounds of ... this or that .... he was getting through his work day ... me with my purpose. 

it was a huge car.... iam ... not even sure .. which one it was .... very posh ...and ... ai m sure .. he brings in alot ... of educated .. .engineers in 
the white city ... i am sure of this .... 

tis irrelevant ... there iam sure .. .are ...a .lot of fokks on earth ... 
doing so much better than me ... in every aspect .. N .. .yet ... 
what is that 2 me ... | 
i am happie .. igot this .. .drgapuja ride with this fllow that nyt. 

& now i know .. .actually ... white city ride .... was ..qute ... 2 me ... also .. this .. guy ... was .. resonsible . .4 .. it ...

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more tales coming soon! 

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sleepy sleepy ... 

sleepy pod ! 
  

  

a name &a disclaimer!

2 girls are sitting in different continents 
and away 4m their birthing

~ 
we've spent our whole lives thisway, connecting-from-far-distance-communication-methods
it sumhow kcreated a base 4 us..
and didnot make both of us mis-included...
weR quite nerdy.. and it's been a gift.

~
rachu..you...should...write...all...this...down...
you..should....kcreate..a..way..to..simply...get..all..this..out...
(imean...really....-idont..wana..hopelessly..give..the...backsrutie...here...

~
so...by...next..time....she...found...this...internet..method...called...blogs...|
N..we..were...both...onboard...but..it's my...journe;,...she...helped...me...anchor...this..|   

~
so on..a...day....of...snow.....reall.....actuall....snow!!!!yaye!!!!!....
iwas...watching....n..playing....with..snow....in...intent....4...the...first....time.....@!.....
and...i...started....writing...here....on..this....workbook..|

~
why? ..r1veRmanab0at?
~
okaye!..this...one's...not..that...khaas....yet...ifelt...lyk....sharing/writing..@this...2daye.

~
ipractically...name..everything.....igive....nicknames...to...all...my...friends...N..they...all...know...this.
ifind..it..a...preetie...unique...practice...in..this...that....it..makes...every....activity/behaviour/event/place/time/thinkgs....so...unique...N...inclusive...2..you....-Not....2..mention...less...boring..|
i do think some people find..it...a..bit..uffff...|well...haye!..iown!up!iam..my...kind...of...crazy~!!!!!!!

~
so.:~
RIVER....for...a...river........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
iam..........crazyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....for...rivers......
it's...a..national..obsession!......
anyways.....indians....Love..their...rivers.!

on top..of.that...Me2!!!!!!!!!!!!

*it's..a.kconnect....from...god...knows...where..but...rivers...are..a...kind...of...Life....for..me...not...in
the...way..of....iam..going....2..subsist....on..her...but....juste'!!!!

so...river...it...was......
ThereAfter.....i..wanted..the..."M"...right...next...to..the...r.lol!
my..own...form...of...secret...Ram..here.namaste...prabhujie!:)
(also....was..going...thru...a..heavy....passion.....flow...for....letter/character..."m"..at...the..time.|
as instilled...by...our...teacher-architect-guru-...rajiv...sir...|

~
not...anymore....infact...iam...unconcerned....@...any...letter/character...now..it..is...my...gift...ilove...
languages..too..much.

Also..iwanted..the...zero...and..one..aththe..time...this..was..another....obsession..|
again...not..anymore...one...grows..out...
(will..write...on..shunya...another..time)

boat...just.....for...a..boat....it...linked...up..structurally....to...a..river...amongst...many..others..
but...i..was...by..this..time...in..a..hurry 2makeup.|
disclaimer...is..this..::::::inoticed...sooooooooooooooooooooooooo many...folks...on...earth...love..a..boat...ikinda...notice...they...love..a..boat...morethan...a..river...
Noah's..ark...is...a..favourite...metaphor/storie....for..most...people...i..notices...|
(N...now...after...reading..more @...it....it...is..wow...agree..)

but..wasn't..so...4...me....|
it..was..an...addendum..2..complete...the name...make..it...more...robust...iguess..|
nature & human. 
river & boat build.

^ thus..icame..aboard...on...a...r1vermanab0at.
(array...main...abhi..dekhie...vermajie...bie..aa..gye:P)
plus..after....writing...it..all...down...together...myway..
it...also...created..a..man...there...inde..name...
this...made...me...happy..too....|..:)..simply!...

~
~ these..days...i..do..find...sharing...all..this...quite...ing...
still...do..it..2keep sharing.

~n..now..my...fingers...r..hurting.
..the..keyboard...plenty...keys...have...been..hacked..by...biyu...|
needs...urgent...repairs.

@bye n tc..dotties...|

#okaye...more...addendum:...@noah's..storie..ref..:
do..u..think?..christ..is..coming?back?
coming...from where?
heaven?
did..he..leave?us??uthinq?
maybe..heis....with..us...no?
ithink...so..
it's...the...christ...consciousness.
he..wants...us..to...bring...the...christ...consciousnes..alive...in...oursleves...
whereever....there..is...strife...he's..gone....
if...we..bring...him...live...in...us...we..are..inlove..
(newaye..this...is...my..thought...leadership!!!!!!!!4todaye!:P:)}

pls...mainu..pelna nie..okaye...?...ik...kudie...sie....iklautie....kithe...rehndie aa ..ai...vie...bol...gie...sie!!!!!:)

some of dese thinks, ilearned in AN rchitecture school..

Architects kcreate comfort for others.

well generally that is the first step:

thereafter follows beauty, luxury, opulence etc....

most often this is a great big term.

kcreating comfort factor...|

arcx train n train n train themselves on for this

its a long process 

for which one needs training for a few years,

encompassing learning of human body proportions 

and furniture/interior design among many other subjects,

and though lots of arcx won't even practise interior design& decor

stillll: 

~

so.......comfort is a great big term for the human animal.

we all need it. every1 deserves this. all living beings. 

what is comfort?

according 2 me:

it has various layers 

yet:

i'am going to give some ofmy illustrations,

" architects world over are striving forthese:

1. if there is an arm stretch , it should reach a shelf.

this is understood thus, 

iam sitting on my desk.

busy and concentrating. 

ihave a table& a chair and whatever machinery iam working on.

now while lazily sitting on my desk, ineed an extra paraphernalia,

without disturbing my concentration,time loss( searching 4 de equipment),

ishould be able to stretch my ,say, right arm..

to produce 2 myself my need presently.

and thus voila ....!

wherever my arm stretches , my gadget is lying here,

i pick it involuntarily

and be on my tasks....

~

really!!!! this takes years of practice.

2. comfort is kcreated with end user in mind.

#different folks find comfort differently.

one needs 2 study this thoroughly.

what iwill find comfortable, maynot becomfortable for someone else.

~1c an architect was hired by acouple 2 design their house.

they lived abroad at the time 

designing and construction was overlooked by means of long distance communication.

so far so good.

new home is ready..

for the couple to movein as they come from another country to settle in..

every1's happy.

&then.

every1 realised on inauguration

the home was built by percieved and recorded standards of human proportions.

best used by six footers.

our uncle & auntie are five footers.

the house is uselessly painfull 2 them..

~~~~

the point though is this.

most often..

in this chase to produce comfort 4 others,

architects forget making themselves comfortable.

a'least i belong in this category....

many others mightbe too..

~

comfort is a state -we chase to provide others..

this is our life..

we forget it 4 ourselves

or forfeit it willingly....

~

what greater jjjjoy on earth...

if cause of my labour ....

others could live hppily ever after..

~

don't wana be a lady martyr 4ever tho:

(:))

~

will gladly accept !:):P some1 being my architect!!!!!!:P

~

afta oll de toil, be a pleasure for 1c.:P

cya'll dotties!!!!!

.

bye.

~sunrise @ chelsea....square....of mycorner.

@withstanding beginning ofautumn cold,

coffee..growing increasingly cold,....

some bun

dysfunctional fountain

doesnt bother me much....

fountain seats

large huge prettyskirt in cotton with geometric cutsnlines white nlight grey

short petiteguy

greying temples

we r in a world of our own

life's passin by:

im earnest very,

he's trying,

all cackled up voice

doesnot bother me

lots of sunlight pours in violins of sunrays

"i used to ride a bicycle"+

okaye"

~ ~ ~ ~

iwant him to come out f his bubble.

he's trying.

im waiting.

sippin coffee

look here n there

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as world spins by

ihear him say.

" iam going this way.

ok

he knows imay not.

"will you come with me?"

i'll come ,

if am ithe only one you want me 2come withu..

silence

hesitation

not of the mind or conversation

silence

jus silence

heart?soulit si in the silences that we actually live ithink

it si in the silences that we actually live ithink

~

world is still passing by

he's gone 2 his

me2mine

~

violins r still playing  soothing music

sunrays lightin up

world is full of festoons

~

my movements are olways a rhythmsong

sunlight can caress me 4 vlong ....

istill tuneturn 4 him.

~

cannot remember..

~

square is foodled in sunlight now..

~ my shocking teasepink gloves ~

~

washed in sunlightbathed

~

clear blue skies.

i'mwhistlin songs olways....

:)

....

|||||Ram.|||||

~ihad..an....amazing...day...holidaye..todaye...again..as...usual.|||||
~
but..today...iam//gonna...make...a..humble...request...to...you..alll.|||||
~
imean...any1..folks...reading...my...beepees.,..as..iam...not..keeping...a.check..of..stats,.here...|
~
~
~
*Tonight..iam..gonna...ask/request...each1..of.you...and..it ..is..this.|
may.i,..request...you..to...say..the..word...Ram......loudly...consciously.|just..1c..only...even..1c.

but..do.it...with..a..certain...amount..of..concentration...,sAY...it...loudly...if..you..shouldbe.able2.
place..stress.on..syllables...length..;;;;; Increase...the..laya...quality...on..each...one....||||
so..ever..so...slowly........RRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaMMMMmmmmmmmmm.||||
.
one..needn't..do..it..if......your..religion...is...different,,etc..and..ifit...forbids..you...4..same.

still..do.it...jus..4..yourself...even..as.an...experiment.
nothing..will...happen..untoward..,i...assure.you.
.
so//if/..you..are...ready..and...you...do..this.|

~Try..remembering...how..it...made..you...feel.maybe....veryyyyyy happy.|
~iam...quite...sure.it...makes...any1...feel.........wonderfullllll.

~
thisisall...this...isa..ll..iwanted...you..2..feel...today.|

~
even..tho..my...country..is...comparatively...a.quiter..nation...meaning..we..have...fewer...civil..fites..on..an..everyday..basis....YET...there..willbe...miscreants...hereand..there.

and..guess...what?3
this..is why...ihave...invited..you..to..try...this...for...urself...1c.

cause..this...should...be..able2..change..our a..little..innerstanding4....better.|
.
when..you..take...RAM's.....name.even..1c......you..are...filled...in...HIs...beauty.
mypeople's obviously.Love...Ram...Bhagwan..to..no..end..|||||
and..this..is...#why.||||

~

||||BhagwanRama and SitaMAA.||||

the name ofRama.contains...the universe.inside..it..|
atleast..for...us.|...we...are...filled...in...his...piety.|

~
Ram's..name...willl....filllll....any1.......in......Happiness...and...lightnes..
kindly...try..it..1c.

~
bye..for..today.|
ty..
tc..
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borrowed 4m some1 ... vdear.

who am i today. who ami becoming? are my priorities of learning to lovelife. N knot jus my own self. n famnfriends. but also.mothershipearth. as i care. for this too. terribly: too much. ( also .. im tired of feeling ... like iama  MISSKNOEITOLL/ AS DAD frequently  teases me 2be. and ( pssst. n sumtimes does'nt evenlike this @ me. ) and yet. ... ( why shall i feign ignoraince. ) im an astoundingly lucky girl. iam very unique. cuz .. god chose me2 be so. i wasn't even .. particularly looking 4 this.  
@ivalue deep authentic relationships. 
I am gentle, caring, (complexly) simple, and highly intuitive.

I am conceptual, idealistic, motivational, reserved, empathetic, sensitive and loyal. 
I seek meaning and and value in what I feel/find symbolic towards my happiness.I'm understanding, forgiving, loving and accepting.I have infinite forgiveness.

untill suddenly I have none. (n yet have this inside., undisplayed) .iwill go to the end of the earth for you. 

If however your lack of compassion interferes with my passion to go to the end of the earth for what and who I believe in.,ibecome done. 
I accept your right to be here. I will not retaliate. I will simply no longer participate.Eventually I don't grow. because I have to. anymore and I grow because I want to.

Eventually character building becomes something good in itself. Eventually it's not about right or wrong good or bad. Eventually I just want to get better.You can come with me if you want but I will not stay here. I will stay tenacious. I will stay determined. I will stay inspired. I will stay excited. I will stay willing. Most of All.... I will stay honest. I have no problem building others up because I know I'm headed that way.; provided I continue my journey towards God and myself.

I will let go of that which does not serve my highest good. I will embrace the darkness that comes with the light. I will have the courage to walk through pain in order to grow. I am not changing who I am. I am simply moving closer to who God wants me to be.

ii would definitely, meeit, ana's one sealeast. .. she has .. olready done a lotta good fome.thank you. anna.  

some of dese thinqks, ilearned in ANarchitecture school,-some BY BEING-determined of joining there ..(grinning!):::: luckily me:))

2.Architects..Love..to...work..hard.

Very..Hard.

weR..preity..meticulous.

arcx..R...1ofthe...most...hardworking...peeps..onearth/

withno..or..hardly..any..returns.../

(i.am..inclusive..of..white..collar..jobs..here....Really...blue..collars..r...originall...bosses~)

.....we..love...2do..what...we..do..| you..wont..find..an...architect...complaining...usually.

We...are...acutely and precisely trained...to..find..solutions...whether...existing...or innear..future.

&not..jus..me..,usually..there..are.sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo manymany

simple..deidcated..good.samaritans...in..this..industry.

every1...lumbers..jus..coz..they..feel.or know thevision.

nothing..else..matters...,not..even..pain.{lol! winkq~!! suffering?!1...}{geetin..diya..}...{dat..in rachspeaq woul mean:getting there.

~

so

yea..

see

ya'll

again!

i..sincerely...wana...thanq..whoever's..reading..my..bepees!

if..it's ...makin..you...happier...den..so be it!

:)

~

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luv racha.

im quite shy:adding stufflyk dis../i vowed 2myself 2b truer.

some of dese thinqks- ilearned in architecture school,-some jus by -determined of joining there ..(grinning!):::: luckily me:))

{{{{{sync.a..few..months:...am...meaning..to..lodge..wri8in..on.my..blogposts( bepees)-

icall..them VignetteCurios:
i...Love!!!!!!my..terminology for the -activity.!!!
im..a.little)...freeier..these..days...
and..iam..making..a.few..commitments..2myself:

~ to..get..more...expressive.. ~ (this..phase..of..life...may..not..be....)
&; also not only did icome2 this reliasaion- dad reitieratedit 2me2

~ as..an..arcx..it..is...cool...to be..able.to beexpressive ..{no..need..really...to...keep..being..all..in:}
~ it's a gift~!

+of.no.small.capacity.or.order.

+to..learn..2...be..a..freewheelin..arcx..shape/express/talk/cherish/share/giggle/laugh/smile/:spend..a...life that shud indeed mean...+well spent!

~i..see..a...lot..of...town/countryfolks...So...bound..up...

~the..entire..world..needs...so...much...liberation...
@various...levels/quarters/ways/  - i (kind/of) have so much ofit!.in..excess,

`imust.learn 2.bring..this, for..every1..evermore.n.completely.
COMING..TO.MINE...}}}}}

HAPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYY LESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSONS :)

1. there is no a) us[usually,a,couple,]----versus them;
b) me versus them/world ; 
neither - UR TEAM versus my team etc etc etc...
(altho-team is an well propositioned and serving term/concept. 
but i could not find another word right now--im..sleepy..actually.)

life..is..extremely.flexible...if..one..learns..to..grow..to..see..it..this..way.
there..r..no..boundaries..we.have..to..adhere..to...if..we..r..ready...to..give..best..all..the..time//..and///ifevery1..learns..this..
we.r..giving..best...
and..recieving...best..too..

most..conflicts...arise..as...some..people...feel...they..have..been..are gettting shortchanged.OR.
ANDTHIS IS MY DILEMMA. some/many..people..are...just..plain..mean----

i..pray..for..them..too...if..u..ask,,me..
every1 living being...should...have...a..very...open...beautifully..brilliant..
hearts'.
par..aisa...hota..nahi..hai.

it requires considerable amount of policing thoughts-
there is less -heart -based awarenss and extreme l evels of mean-mindedness.
it's sad really. 2 me.

a big heart bubbles wjoy unimagined in lives.
teams are created 4 togethernes;
the goal is 2play life beautifully.
instead they become vehicles for in-fighting ,power struggles,ego hassles, pulling legs, bullying and sach lies.
world isone.weare.
there are more avenues of similarities between us than there are of differences.
it's good 2 standup 4 urself. [im myself quite individualistic- 
it's even brilliantto belong 2oneanother.
operate 4mthat negotiating empowering and "bringing together" sense of life..
it's first class.

+anything or any1 -you/i feel are not operating for our highest good -be- let off.
there is soun much creative space around Alife. it's very valuable.
strife is no good. love/creativity/joy these r worthy...of you/your time.

(and even if not- still: claim/force/belong 2happiness.
please?!.

2.2b continuous~